Friday, January 2, 2009

Unwelcome attention

by KParthasarathi 02 Jan 2009

I am very happy here and am always surrounded by care-free people, who keep laughing, jumping and doing what they like most. No one tells me to do this or that. I can be what I like to be. There is so much of vacant space with many big trees providing cool shade and breeze with benches underneath to stretch along. I never like to be confined to my small room and always wish to be in open space looking at the sky. Even a passing dog or running squirrel interests me. Many people come and talk to me on their own. Frankly I am not a mixer and would like to be left alone with my thoughts. I know many subjects from economics to philosophy though the latter is is my favourite subject. I have read many books but most of what I have read has oozed out of my sieve like memory. I try to remember the same. I am not spiritual or religious but yet often think of the creator who made this world and all the beings in it. But these friends who surround me are unintelligible to me though they passionately try to make me understand what they keep telling me. When I do not evince interest, they leave me alone to pursue my thoughts. Everything is orderly in this place, an old age home, I think. I am comfortable except for one thing that disturbs me a lot. I should tell you in detail about this young lady who is bothering me with her constant unwelcome attention.

She has made it a point to come almost daily failing which on alternate days. She does not go to others but makes a beeline towards me. She comes and sits by my side too close to my comfort. Something must be bothering her for she is always in tears. Even her smile is strained. She caresses me with her hand and strokes my head. She invariably brings some snacks or sweets in a small box for me to eat. However much I decline she would not leave me without ensuring my eating the stuff. I have told her in angry tones times without number that I would wish to be left alone and have asked her why she was troubling me always and not others. But she would not get upset. Funny she called me her appa (dad) and said she did not know others nor had she any interest in them except me. Frankly I do not know this lady at all though her face is familiar and reminds me of my long dead wife. She is no doubt kind to me but I wish to get along with thoughts undisturbed. I am actually planning to write a book on how a man can maintain his faculties at the optimum level by constant practice .But she daily breaks my chain of thoughts and my treatise is getting delayed .Am I wrong in expressing my annoyance at her and speak to her harshly? But she cries making me more miserable. I don’t know whether I have developed a fondness for her.

I have seen her always approaching one man in white pants and shirt near the office building. That man is not good. I think he is a cruel man as he has hurt me many times dragging me to his room with his henchmen. She should not go near him for her benefit and safety. I told her of my apprehension many times. But she just smiles and ignores my caution.

Today after she met me, she started moving towards the office, I followed her without being noticed. I wanted to be of help in case some harm came to her. When she went inside the office and I hid behind a partially closed window to overhear the conversation. I heard her asking him “Is appa improving? I do not see any sign of improvement. I could see no sign of recognition in his face.”

He replied “Sorry madam, it takes long time in some cases. We are doing our best and even made him undergo shock therapy. Let us hope he becomes ok soon. Pray to God.”
I could not understand about whom she was talking to him. I was determined to ask her when she came out who her appa was.

15 comments:

  1. Wonderful story. When love and affection is over expressed it means making the other person realize how much they mean to him. "To love and to be loved is the most heavenly thing on Earth."

    Take care.
    BTW nice template and wish you a happy and health new year.

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  2. That was a beautiful write-up. read it on MSN and felt i should stop by to say a good word. It was written in a different perspective.

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  3. Thanks Vaishnavi and Suchi for visiting the blog and for posting nice comments

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  4. A beautiful post. Often, I feel, a similar attempt to detach from me is expressed by my Appa as the writer depicts here: "She has made it a point to come almost daily failing which on alternate days. She does not go to others but makes a beeline towards me." Often due to the difficulties faced in life, we may not be able to express our love as much as we would like to, but deep inside our hearts, the connection remains. This post has brought healing tears to my eyes. Thank you Parthasarathi. My best wishes to you.

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  5. Thanks a tonne ,Ayesha.You write superbly.regards,KP

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  6. Lovely write up.....couldn't help thinking of my own father...

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  7. Thank you Vim for the nice words. why think abt your dad?
    regards
    KP

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  8. the story made me think of how the person does not feel unhappy, or pity about himself..how would it be if we could look inside others' minds to see their point of view too?

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  9. Thanks,Vasudha,for visiting the blog and for the comments

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  10. Simply brilliant and choked my emtions completely!!

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  11. Sweta, a big thanks for the comment

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  12. a very beautifully written article, showing the occurance in a different perspective than the usual one.:)
    lakshmi

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  13. Thanks Lakshmi(Ch'put?) for visiting the blog and for leaving a comment

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  14. The story indicates a pure love. There are so many types of love like love out of affection, love out of fear or terror. But here in this case it is nothing but love out of pure love

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  15. Thank you Mr.swaminathan for visiting my blog and for the nice comments

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