(This story relates to pre-mobile days)
The
final examination for class 12 was just a few weeks away. It was lunchtime. I
was sitting alone in the prayer hall where the students assembled daily in the
morning
I
saw Durai standing outside the prayer hall with his friends, looking at me once in a while and conversing with them. I knew why he was there, but I just
ignored him. I must give a short introduction about him, as he plays a
significant role in this story
He
is a school bully, tall, muscular, with unruly hair and a copper bracelet on
the wrist. Except for his cronies, the boys and girls gave him a wide berth.
Short-tempered, he was given to picking quarrels for flimsy reasons and turning
violent. A backbencher, he fared poorly in studies. The teachers, who knew that
his dad was a local politician, generally left him alone. He was proficient in
Karate and had a colour belt.
A
week earlier, I had warned him to stay away from Sumitra, our classmate. Every
time she walked past him, he made some indecent comments or hummed film songs
with double meaning, much to the amusement of his buddies and the embarrassment
of Sumitra. Sometimes he will try to indulge in silly talk with her. When she
could tolerate it no more, she confided in me.
Durai
did not like my admonition and angrily shook my collar and. threatened me to
mind my own business if I wished to avoid getting maimed for life. He punched
me hard and pushed me away as he left with his pals
A
brief account of my friendship with Sumitra would be apt here. I have been
studying with Sumitra for the last four years, and there was nothing special
between us except as classmates till we came to class 12. It was the beginning
of the academic year, and as usual, I sought refuge during lunchtime in my
favourite corner of the prayer hall. The large hall was practically empty in
the afternoons except for some students passing through the hall at the other
end. I was sort of dozing one day with my eyes half closed when a whiff of
jasmine fragrance wafted across me. I opened my eyes to see Sumitra standing
before me with some books in her hand. I smiled at her and arched my brows as
if to ask what brought her to me.
“I
have some doubts in geometry and am unable to solve a few problems. I was
initially hesitant, but decided to come to you as you are a topper in the
class,” she said softly
“Sit
down and show me the questions” I replied.
She
sat on the bench a little away and spread the notebook on her lap. She opened
the page in the geometry book and showed me the problems.
They
were simple, and I took the notebook from her and drew the diagrams. She came
closer to me, craning her neck to see what I wrote. Her hair with jasmine
concealed in it almost brushed my face. The intoxicating smell, the proximity
of a feminine figure was something new to me, triggering unexplained feelings
in me. As I was explaining the diagram and the construction needed to solve the
problem, her hand brushed against mine. I stopped explaining momentarily, and
she looked at me quizzically.
“I
hope you do not mind my troubling you now and then like this, Raju. Things are
clearer to me now,” she said with a shy smile
“Not
at all. It is a pleasure to help you. You can always approach me”
“Did
you say a pleasure?” she said as she flashed a smile and scurried away.
There
was a song in my heart as I got up, looking at the receding beautiful girl.
The
next day, she came and thrust a notebook, saying, “I have to rush. I have
unsolved problems in calculus. I will collect it tomorrow. I hope you won’t
mind”
I
opened the notebook after she was gone, and a peacock feather fell. I smiled to
myself. I inwardly knew that her getting her doubts cleared was only a pretext
to be with me.
The
exchange of notebooks with rose petals, flowers and small notes with names
written graphically became a routine, though we had not mentioned that we were
in love with each other. One day, she mentioned she said she would be joining
SSM Engineering College and wished that I also do the same. “We can be together
for four more years. Choose ECE.”
I
asked her mischievously, “What about after four years? Won’t you like to be
together?”
She said “Chee, chee “and
ran away.
It
was on one such day recently, Sumira complained about Durai’s constant
harassment, followed by my warning him.
I
was woken up from my reverie when I found Durai lifting me by my collar and
dragging me outside the prayer hall to the gate. There were his buddies and
many students standing in a circle.
“You
skinny cheapster, who the hell are you to warn me to stay away from Sumitra?
What is she to you? Your sweetheart or lover?” he shook my body violently.
When
I did not reply, partly shaken by fear, he flexed his muscles and punched me on
my face. There was laughter from his buddies and horror in the looks of other
students.
“Are
you dumb? Open your mouth if you wish to save your life,” thundered Durai in
rage.
I
smelt blood and looked around. Another blow landed on me like a sledgehammer. I
fell. Someone came running towards me.
”
Don’t anyone dare to come near us. It is a private quarrel, or shall I say
duel? I have decided to end the issue once and for all,” he roared
Turning
towards me he asked, “Is she your lover? How close are you to her, you rascal?
Keep away from her. Do you understand?”
I
knew I could not fight with him, and he only wanted me to resist him so he
could hit me more. My silence infuriated him so much that he kept raining blows
on me even as I lay on the ground, cowering in fear. Things turned black, and I
felt myself going unconscious.
It
was then I heard faintly Sumitra’s shrieking voice, “Stop it, Durai. I had only
asked him to tell you. I have nothing for him. Leave him alone”
“Why
are you so concerned about him? Are you in love with him?” Durai shouted
“I
told you I have no love for him. I feel bad because he gets beaten for what I
asked him to do. In fact, I have no fancy for him. He is a puny bookworm and
nothing more. I beg you to leave him alone”
Durai
gave one final kick and went away laughing with his buddies in the knowledge
that Sumitra did not love me. I lay there, shattered not by the blows of Durai
but by the hurt and disbelief caused by Sumitra’s words. Are all the exchanges
and interactions since the beginning of the year a deception, I wondered?
Both
avoided each other studiously, and I could see a spring in Durai’s Walk after
that violent incident.
The
day after the final examinations were over, Anusha, a common friend, came home
and gave me an envelope.” Please read this and I will come in the evening to
collect your reply. Sumi is such a nice girl. You will understand,” said Anusha
before leaving.
“My
dear Raju,
You
must be having a very low opinion of me, and I understand that. But I could not
bear, that brute hitting you like a murderer, overcome by jealousy that I love
you. He has seen us together many times and always talked derogatorily of you.
The only way, I felt I could save you that day from being killed, was by
proclaiming that I hated you and satisfying his ego.
Please
understand and forgive me. These days of silence between us have been torture.
I am looking forward to spending four years at the college with you, and who
knows, thereafter? Send me a reply through Anusha that you have
forgiven me, and that I can always come to you with problems in
mathematics.
Love,
S”
As
I jumped in joy and made a jig, my mom entered the room and asked me, “Why are
you dancing, Raju? Any good news?”
I
hugged my mom and said nothing except for a smile.